~NixDX

So, I've just finished making a salad which I'm going to eat later.
And I'm sat here drinking my Raspberry and Cranberry Tea. My sisters in the hallway attempting to push me to a limit which seems to be absent right now. My Pc is blurting out some dribble, a song.. one I thought was one of my favorites.

I did some research earlier about my "condition".

"Although in many cases Brain Hemorrhage occurs just in a flash without a warning, some symptoms are considered to be warning bells for the condition and you should look out for the qualified common symptoms. A sudden and very intense headache, vomiting/nausea are most common symptoms of Brain Hemorrhage. If sometimes you experience that your body parts are not responding to your will i.e. if you feel paralyzed or in other words if you feel sudden numbness in body organs (this may be a momentary condition), then you should consult your physician at the earliest. Sometimes, the leakage of blood starts very slowly and very small quantity of blood spills out of the vessel in the sensitive area of the brain, because of which the patient do not get a severe stroke but he/she may start loosing his/her consciousness or may feel dizzy. "
Thats a section of it, and can I say.. it describes what happened well, so I have no doubts of it now, but the moment I realised this.. I stopped caring. I'm the calmest I've ever been.

My granddad called me earlier to ask me how I was, said he'd come visit soon, like in a month or so for a few days. This phone call made me so happy, I don't know why.. It was 12 at night over there and he'd called me. He was half asleep and I could tell but it was my Granddad ^^

I'm not worried about my exam results at all.
The only thing I am worried about right now is how my hands keep going numb and that's more of an annoyance..

I think what my problem was, I worried too much. Yeah, the thought of going to the doctors is scaring me but I'm not worried about going, cause in going I'll know. And I know they say ignorance is bliss,, but right now. I think if I knew I was seriously ill I might act it, as apposed to pretending I'm fine and that everything is okay.

But then, nothings ever been perfect for me. Lives just one of those things.
What can go wrong will, and just when you think you're getting a break from the crap, something big comes along and levels you out.

June the 19th was the happiest day of my life so far, I'm happy to pay for it with this. All I hope is that I don't end up lying on a table for it.